2012

Hey 2012, Bye 2011

Hye guys, haven't heard from me for a quite some times right ;) *kay, nobody cares -..-' so, my first day of school and i'm sixteen not officially sixteen but physically sixteen. but yaaa, first day of school is not much to say, i mean there's a lot actually. easier to say tht it's not tht great -.-' the perhimpunan, well as usual boring kan. and my legs kebas and tht sucks =.= so then, they separated us according to our classes. 4C, then 4O when my name is not called, i'm soo relieved actually because i want to sit in the same class with of course la my friends kan ;) but unfortunately my name is called for 4O and guess what my name is last -.-' so, it's like i've been kick out from akademi fantasia. carried my bag and entered the class. i cried LOL xD the environment in tht class was so tense -.-' for sure la kan, everyone, i mean every single ones in the class are geniuses, unlike me, i think i'm a stranger tht lost in some sort of jungle where it's quiet and peaceful. so then, i tried to change my class but in the end malas la pulak. i get blend with the class so i think maybe i should just stayed there. =) the teachers are great except for one =.=' and i miss my friends, i miss my 3L's classmates not just 3L but 1 and 2L too. ;) i miss the outburst of the class throughout the years we spent together and when i think back i guess i swear i'm going to cry after i got to go asrama. :') honestly, in 4O i can't scream like i used to in the class, i can't scold people which not the thing tht i like to do the most xD  yaaa, it's all because, hmm, maybe the aura from the geniuses -.-' usually in the class i used to shine, people noticed me but now it's different i can't shine people don't know me and most of them are busy studying -.-' so that's it, how bored is my life now. I'm Officially A Geek. -.-' huh, how abusive it sounds rite. haha xD but anyway at least i dah blend in with tht class and my newly classmates =) but still missing my friends and gossiping session when cikgu tak masuk lagi ='( hah btw, i dah "popular" i mean wayyy to popular. my face is in a banner =.=' then everyone kept asking and i was like WHAT??! pergi tengok then bapak ahh, dari jauh can see oneee..haiyaaaa. ini tuition manyak cari pasal sama wa la =.=' okay i know they're proud of me, but takpayah la tayang my face infront of my school. after kne perli by someone, yaa i know i'm not the only person tht got straight A's in convent -..-' blame the tuition center, not me. peace* =)

kay but no worries i've got my super awesome spy took it down for me. mwehehe.. Love you bebeh ;)

so at last, i'm fine in tht class, okaylaaa. okay bye need to do my homework =.='
*fyi my class name is 4Optimistic ahaks xD and and i proud to say tht i kne gantung jadi librarian. mwehehe -..-' sbb well tgk aje my attendance. teruk nak mampos. nasib baik kne gantung, belum "You're Fired!" Haha xD btw baru settle bce blog Fatin Liyana, Maria's future sister in-law. she's a future doctor. goshh her blog, just makes me want to become a doctor more. and nervous more. she said it's not easy, we must be a person tht are
emotionless and immortal. don't mess with a medical students. ;) 
so am i ready to become a emotionless and immortal person. ntahla but what i know now is i still scared of blood xD

Have you?

Have you :

........ been jealous to people who are beautiful than you in kindergarten?

..... been crazy if you saw anything colourful and forced your mommy to buy it?

....... cried on the first day of school (standard 1)?

......... drew a circle that looked like egg?

...... cried when teacher yell at you a little bit?

.... used to hate your brother?

.... felt like a adopted daughter?

..... hit your classmate with a wood?

........ have a crush that dump you in a sec?
.... cried after your father read your diary and making fun of it?
.... dislike your father when he laugh at me when he knew my crush?

..... been thinking to run away from home whenever you get scolded badly?

...... been rude to your teacher?

..... thought about quiting school/study?

.... drew/ vandalize the school's property until you get caught?

..... heard your parent fight infront of you?

....... felt hurt whenever they fight all over again and again?

.... felt like killing your own father?

.... thought about getting a new life?

.... been happy with your mom?

.... make your mom smiles or you just hurt her?

.... thought about giving all your heart and your life to ONLY your mom?

..... been a good friend to your friends?

..... keep on smiling even though you have a really really huge problem?

.... make people tired of you?

... like someone who already reject you a long time ago?

.... thought about getting a liposuction?

.... thought about making a plastic surgery on your face whenever a huge pimples appear?

.... felt sensitive lately?

.....been stress whenever a BIG EXAM is around the corner?

.... study really really hard to be an awesome daughter to your mom?

.... dream to be a successful doctor?

...... for the first time saw the pretty face of your mom when she's proud of you, crying because of happiness for your successful achievement?

.... felt touched when your mom bought everything you want?

.... thought about getting married? HAHAHAHA xD

okay that's too early -..-'

so, the questions is Have You??

all the questions above is my past. Yaaa, as you read it, and as i was writing, it's actually the real story of me? the questions that used to occur in my head, maybe until now. well, that's not the whole point. what i'm trying to say is, just read my past, i looked like i was a bad girl right? muahahaha xD but no worries, it's primary, chill la, my classmate that i hit is still alive okay, alive! don't worry. so, back to the whole point, from the start i was a bit immature right, i mean a lot. -.-' but then, after the 'the black spot' i just realize that time makes me became a person who are more mature. and the whole thing doesn't bother me anymore. as time fly, i became more and more brave to handle my own problem, to take care of my mom, to be a girl who doesn't receive her dad's love and most importantly to be who i am now. Haha. the awesomeness of me right?! xD 

i have my mom and my friends so that's the strength that keep on telling me to survive. and i'm really grateful to have all of them. alhamdulilah. 

okayyy, so i'm getting older. mwehehe. not actually a great news but insyaallah, i'll be a good person. i am already a good person. ahak. =_=' i mean a better person. =) 

getting older means getting wiser right?! so i'm happy ;)
Happy New Year =)

=)

Ello ;)

i've been happy/excited/joyous  lately. want to know why.. haha. Mama bought me one of my dream ;)  i know i know but some dreams can be bought kann. like CANON DSLR.. mwehehehe ;) are u jealous honey.. please don't be... kay, i know i'm being snobbish =..=' but yaa, i'm actually suprised cos mama told me tht it's not worth to buy. so like what i said, i redha je la. but never thought mama nak suprise kann =D and guess what, spongebob dapat.. okay, i know, annoying -..-' cos dye pun dpt sebab last year dye pun straight A's. so tak kisah, he deserve it. he got samsung galaxy tab (takpyh caplocks -..-'). it just what i got on the ame time he'll got his share too. mcm last case beli phone.. dye nak jugakkkk... -..-

Haha xD but takpe.. kami kan siblings and what we need to do is sharing to show tht we're a caring siblings. =..=' like we are kann. Hahaha. and abg now teach me how to use dslr sbb dye pun really really in with photography. skrg, most of the pictures is my baby cute little sister sofea. ♥ ♥ ♥

My Sunday, well it's as usual, lepak with my family, lepak rumah cikda, makan breakfast at chinese muslim restaurant then lepak rumah acu pulak. what an activity kann. then, acu ajak pegi Masjid Jamek, KL sbb got shawl and all the thing yang SUPER CHEAP! naik LRT then shopping, goshhh ramai giler, guess what i'm wearing, i just wear a sweatpants and t-shirt with cardigan and the worst part is i wear slippers, my red selipar jepun. -.-' seriously tak plan langsung nak pegi mne2. tup tup pegi KL naik LRT pulak tu. =.=' bile dah rmai2 and i'm wearing like tht dgn penatnye berjalan, mula la nak ngamuk kan but when dah sampai kedai shawl. i was like bapak ahhhh, murah gilerrr! shawl 6-RM10. I mean, satu je RM2.. wht the ehhhh.. xD happy giler. and dye punye kain quality okayy. sbb kt sini beli kain cmtu dah RM10 satu je. kat sne RM10 boleh dapat 6. Hahaha xD but balik2 mcm menyesal pegi sbb rmai giler giler org. =.=' plus penat.

heeeeeeee =)

Alhamdulilah.. =)

today was nerve-wrecking day and it turns out to be a GREAT day.. alhamdulilah my dream, my doa dimakbulkan. alhamdulilah alhamdulilah alhamdulilah .

so after amik result, kay terharu skjp then nmpk julah and far. alhamdulilah result kami semua okay. happy giler cos yaaa, tak sia2 struggle giler2 before PMR then dpt cmnie mmg happy la kan. but hmm, still tak boleh happy sangat sbb yaaa... life still must go on. and kebahagian itu cuma sementara je. well, dah ceramah -..-'

okay, got to say, i've been a little bit sensitive lately. asyik nangis je keje. =.=' i don't know why.. mse amik result tu, tak duduk lgi, Susi dah congrats elisa... i was like is it still a dream. mwehehe. then, karthi and shing zee and vasugi and ain pun dpt straight A's. alhamdulilah. then, jalan2 ngan mama, tgk dslr, mahal, then mama tak kasi so redha jela. makan makan makan. cikda pun belanja makan again. Haha xD but anyway thank you for everything. so, tadi budak duaorg nie *afiqfarhan and shakeeldanial* rajin giler jdi mc'd delivery, pegi hantar mc'd dpn rumah, Hahaha xD cuak giler nak keluar mlm2 =.=' anyway terima kasih =) hah, btw nampak ain kt JJ. alolo, excited nampak ko tibe2. Haha xD

Congratulations my dearest friends <3 <3 <3