Have you?

Have you :

........ been jealous to people who are beautiful than you in kindergarten?

..... been crazy if you saw anything colourful and forced your mommy to buy it?

....... cried on the first day of school (standard 1)?

......... drew a circle that looked like egg?

...... cried when teacher yell at you a little bit?

.... used to hate your brother?

.... felt like a adopted daughter?

..... hit your classmate with a wood?

........ have a crush that dump you in a sec?
.... cried after your father read your diary and making fun of it?
.... dislike your father when he laugh at me when he knew my crush?

..... been thinking to run away from home whenever you get scolded badly?

...... been rude to your teacher?

..... thought about quiting school/study?

.... drew/ vandalize the school's property until you get caught?

..... heard your parent fight infront of you?

....... felt hurt whenever they fight all over again and again?

.... felt like killing your own father?

.... thought about getting a new life?

.... been happy with your mom?

.... make your mom smiles or you just hurt her?

.... thought about giving all your heart and your life to ONLY your mom?

..... been a good friend to your friends?

..... keep on smiling even though you have a really really huge problem?

.... make people tired of you?

... like someone who already reject you a long time ago?

.... thought about getting a liposuction?

.... thought about making a plastic surgery on your face whenever a huge pimples appear?

.... felt sensitive lately?

.....been stress whenever a BIG EXAM is around the corner?

.... study really really hard to be an awesome daughter to your mom?

.... dream to be a successful doctor?

...... for the first time saw the pretty face of your mom when she's proud of you, crying because of happiness for your successful achievement?

.... felt touched when your mom bought everything you want?

.... thought about getting married? HAHAHAHA xD

okay that's too early -..-'

so, the questions is Have You??

all the questions above is my past. Yaaa, as you read it, and as i was writing, it's actually the real story of me? the questions that used to occur in my head, maybe until now. well, that's not the whole point. what i'm trying to say is, just read my past, i looked like i was a bad girl right? muahahaha xD but no worries, it's primary, chill la, my classmate that i hit is still alive okay, alive! don't worry. so, back to the whole point, from the start i was a bit immature right, i mean a lot. -.-' but then, after the 'the black spot' i just realize that time makes me became a person who are more mature. and the whole thing doesn't bother me anymore. as time fly, i became more and more brave to handle my own problem, to take care of my mom, to be a girl who doesn't receive her dad's love and most importantly to be who i am now. Haha. the awesomeness of me right?! xD 

i have my mom and my friends so that's the strength that keep on telling me to survive. and i'm really grateful to have all of them. alhamdulilah. 

okayyy, so i'm getting older. mwehehe. not actually a great news but insyaallah, i'll be a good person. i am already a good person. ahak. =_=' i mean a better person. =) 

getting older means getting wiser right?! so i'm happy ;)
Happy New Year =)